I will always remember the moment when we found out we were expecting a baby. Walmart bathroom in Eau Claire, WI…yeah, not the most ideal or romantic spot to take a test. But I had to know. David and I had just driven up the night before to visit his family and the “fluttering” I had felt for a couple of days could not be ignored. I cried. David consoled.
I will always remember the moment I saw Trey’s little face for the first time the day he was born. I was so in love that moment and I saw the same love in David’s eyes.
I will always remember the moment at his twelve-month check-up with the pediatrician. He asked us to fill out answers to a list of questions about Trey’s development. By the time David and I got to the end of the list we had concerns.
I will always remember the moment on April 5, 2012 when the doctor at Thompson Center for Autism said he was autistic. David said he stopped breathing for a moment. I was filled with sadness. We had heard it out loud. It was official. Now we could move on and get the help Trey needed, but why did I feel like crying?!
I will always remember the moments when Trey holds my face and gives me a big wet kiss…when he looks at me with pure love in his eyes. I realize then he is not the “autistic child.” He is Trey, our smart little boy.
Life is full of these moments. I know there will be many more, good and bad. Easy and challenging. Big and little. But they are all important and worth noting. I know I am not alone.
Saint Charles, MO